so it's no secret i've been doin' the inner struggling here.
i'm kinda feelin' sheepish as i think i have a few of you worried about me.
no worries! part of the terri journey!~
AND i already felt like things were turning around inside of me....
i really felt like after a quiet weekend, i'd be back in the game full force by monday.
but this just iced the cake for me and i had to share!
mixin' in with any personal stuff of mine, there will always be business
struggles....just tryin' to figure out where i'm goin' with my life always
includes where i'm going with business. it's all part of the same deal.
i'm tryin' hard. really hard. and i just have that 'spinning my wheels' feeling
goin' on. so last nite as i was driving home i was so frustrated and i just
threw it all out 'there' and said 'help me! i can't figure this out! just help me!'
and i meant it. i was about as frustrated as you get. and i meant it.
and just now....an angel called me.
i am not kidding.
i hung up the phone with tears in my eyes.
it was a woman looking for a place to buy my cards.
seemingly ordinary enough, right?
nah, no way. she was totally a gift from beyond.
what she said to me and how she encouraged me truly touched my heart
and brought tears to my eyes.
she reminded me of what i'm doing and why i'm doing it and what matters.
she reminded me of everything my heart knows and my mind clouds.
she reminded me.
and what's really funny is i spent the morning figuring out numbers.
i mean, i did numbers in a way i never did numbers before.
i was determined to figure this whole business stuff out, darn it.
and i was just getting ready to sit down and see what the numbers told me
when she called.
i hung up the phone and put the numbers down.
oh, i'll share them with the guys and we'll talk about them and i'll try to
be smart about them.......but i don't care anymore. i really don't.
cause elizabeth reminded me.....there's more to it than numbers, girl.
there's way more to it than that.
and i think what's bringing the tears to my eyes right now is that i honestly
honestly feel like she was my angel. i really do.
and THAT part is overwhelming after a week of feeling so lost and so full of struggle.
that part is just the most wonderful feeling.
we all do matter. what we say to each other matters. how we reach out
to each other matters. we're all each other's angels.
and i so needed her today.
you quieted my heart in just the way i needed today.