there's been a lotta processing goin' on inside of me.
and i gotta say, i'm surprised about it all.
when something ends, i know there's processing....
but it seems like this is the second time in my life that i thought
i was emotionally prepared for something to end, only to wind up surprised
at how much of a toll it takes when it finally happens.
i don't think i'm ever gonna buy that line people say all the time
'we knew the end was coming so we're okay' again.....
cause i'm thinking processing just has to happen. even when you think
you did it beforehand. cause maybe you can't really do that beforehand.
i don't know.
i just know that i kinda wish i'd finish up with the whole processing thing.
and i'm pretty sure it has its own timetable.and i'll just have to go with it.
it actually has made me think of people with trauma.
cause this hasn't been trauma that i'm processing.....it's been a ton of stress....
and sadness and stuff like that.....but that's different.
so the trauma stuff would have to be a thousand times harder to process
when it's over. and i thought of that this morning.
my first thoughts while waking up this morning were processing thoughts.
and that's when i thought about people suffering with trauma.
what if it was trauma and those were my first thoughts in the morning?
or the thoughts that crept into my head all thru the day were thoughts
of a trauma i had experienced? and that's just the thoughts....
that's not including the physical reactions....
the chemical change in your body when the thoughts come.
and i felt such compassion for people going thru that right now.
and i know a lotta people are. and how it must feel like there will never
i wanted to be a reminder to you today....i think there will be peace.
i think there will. i just think there's that processing time that you gotta
get thru. and i think when you're in the middle of that it doesn't feel
like there's an end.
i believe there is an end tho.
and some.......yeah, i think some trauma will stay forever....but it will
be like waves you will be able to get thru. it will get better.
i don't really have any authority to say that. i mean, what do i know?
but i watch people and i see what happens....and it seems to work this way.
i believe it does.
and so i wanted to be a reminder to you today.
the resilience of your soul is pretty amazing. and we forget.
but that's okay, cause we just keep reminding each other and
reaching out and helping each other back up.