today

i didn't know til early this afternoon about the movie theater shooting.

the tears ran down my face as i read it.
and the horror just filled me.

i've been sitting with it today and trying to hold some of it.

when the tragedy happened in norway, i wrote a bone sigh -
'for norway'.......

i want to post it here today and just leave it quietly this weekend
while we all try to hold what's happened.

the darkness comes.
blackness surrounds.
overwhelmed, i fall to the ground. 
and there, with my arms covering my head, 
with my tears soaking the earth, 
wanting to block everything out,
it makes its way thru the pain.
it finds me. 
the light i can't stop believing in.
the light that somehow will not die. 
finding me again,
it tells me to stand 
and let it shine thru me. 
tears still wet on my face,
i stand. 
choosing to believe,
i face the world again with light in my eyes.




praying over here....