i was weary.
the world seemed a self centered, selfish place...
i needed a break from it all.
i knew goofin' with art would make me feel better,
but i had to drag myself to go do it.
i just felt low and heavy.
i turned on music that always talks to my soul,
pulled out the art stuff,
and immediately found myself dancing around.
i think i kinda needed this.
i played with my art for while.
until i felt my spirits rise again.
i could feel all the parts of me humming along,
singing along and smiling.
yeah, i needed this.
then when i sat down at my desk,
i saw the cards and notes that had come in the mail.
i looked at them and smiled.
there was nothing but love and kindness sitting right there.
i turned to an order someone made to support me.
someone who has to budget as well,
but there was her order.
there to support me.
with total love.
i turned to a gift i had gotten that morning.
FOR PETE'S SAKE TERRI!
LOOK AT ALL THIS LOVE!
it's everywhere, all around me.
definitely all over my desk.
and i felt such gratitude.
and i thought about it.
the FEW negative interactions certainly had taken over
and colored the TONS of positives all around me.
amazing how that can happen.
i tried not to let them.
but they did.
for a little while anyway.
they made me weary.
taking some time to center,
to forget the world,
to go inside myself and just totally be,
brought me back to a place of gratitude.
i thought of the things that made me weary.
they seemed so far away...
they didn't matter.
i wanted to put my energy where it did matter -
with the love.
with the love.
that's where it matters.
and now i could.
i got up and danced all over again.