found some beautiful soothing from mr. mark nepo and wanted to share.
from his book 'the exquisite risk' -
'...that this is the work of integration: to have our inner soul work
meet our outer relational work. Indeed, how can we be who we
are when no one is around and bring that holy presence everywhere?
...while it will always be necessary to travel in solitude to find
the numinous center of what it means to be alive, we spend too much
time keeping the truth of who we are in the closet. We spend too
much time being closet-authentics, while the miracle of what
is waits, ever so quietly, for our skins of truth to touch.'