stars for sue....

how much of the story do i tell?
i've talked about it here before, and yet, it's not my story,
so i want to be careful with it.....and yet if you're gonna help,
like i hope you will, you need pieces of it to understand.

i met her when i was first starting out with bone sighs.
at a festival.
she was first starting out on a new journey herself.
she was a lot younger than i was, but she connected with the bone sighs
and we enjoyed each other right from the start.

it's been over ten years now and we've only gotten closer.
seein' each other here and there.
lately tho, there's been a pretty big tug that's been pulling us closer.

she has cancer.
pretty darn bad.
and is on her last ditch effort to beat it.

she's in her thirties.
way too young.
and battling hard.

she just began a really rough clinical trial.
where they plan on blasting the daylights outta her,
and somehow (forgive my non-medical talk) swapping out her current
immune system, training new cells to fight the cancer, and shooting
the new adapted stuff into her, hopefully to create a whole new kinda
immune system.

it's her last hope from the medical community,
and as you can imagine, it's one heck of a thing to go thru.

she's currently getting blasted with chemo.
and i think it's about as rough as it gets.

when we were last together, she explained the procedure to me.
i immediately went to the star visual i use for myself a lot.
picturing stars inside me.

i mentioned it to her.
'when they shoot the new stuff into you, maybe you can picture them
shooting stars inside you,' i offered.

and we started talking about the star visuals.

i immediately thought of my on-line community.

what if i asked everywhere, everyone, if they'd join her? join me?
in visualizing stars inside her?! what if we surrounded her in light and she
knew it?!

it could only help.
it could only only only help.

and so.......i want to post this everywhere i can..........i want to ask anyone
who feels inclined to, to go ahead and share it.......and i wanted to ask people to
figure out some kinda thing that works for them where they could, on a regular basis,
think of my friend, and picture her insides filling with bright beautiful stars.

i'm not sure you need to actually 'see' her........but if it helps, she's in her 30's,
shes got short blonde hair, and the most beautiful smile you ever want to see.
here eyes these days, tho they try to smile along with her mouth, are very sad.
she has a wicked funny sense of humor, and is using it at every turn to get thru
all that she needs to get thru.

her name is sue.
and she actually does twinkle anyway.......so visualizing stars shining in her and
out of her, isn't that hard.

will you join me?
if you want to leave a comment for sue, go ahead.
i can pass them her way and let her know that we're all with her and doin'
our best to surround her.

let's light up that hospital room, sue's insides, and the whole universe!
want to?!