tis the season

thinking about life.
thinking about the season.

because of what i do, i hear a lotta rough stories.
a lot of them.

and man, i tell ya, yesterday my heart was breaking over some of them.

i sat for a bit with some candles and i wondered about it all.

how is it we keep standing thru all the weight sometimes?
how do we keep going?
how is it we get thru really awful things, and later can smile again
and even find ourselves offering christmas gifts to another?

i looked at the candles, thought of the season.
honestly, for me, that's what it's all about.
the ability to do just that..to get back up again..
to know we can get thru the darkness.
to understand the darkness is part of it.
and the hope and the light that it takes to get us back to those places.

it's easy to say pretty words about the light in the darkness.....
but to really sit with that and hold it is quite another thing.

'this is what it's about, terri,' i told myself.
the hope.
the belief in the light.
even when it's so dark.

the holding of it all.
and the knowing that it's sacred.

wow.
sometimes that is so hard.

it seems quite fitting that we take some time out to honor
that light....to hold that dark....and to sit with our beliefs.

what an incredible time of year.

i look out the window at the trees reaching up to the heavens,
so quietly, so profound and still....

and i remember why this is my favorite time of year.