Monday, August 4, 2014

something i wrote this morning...

Making knives of their words,
she cut herself over and over again.
Using a club of self doubt, she beat herself
until her beauty fell to the floor.
Not being able to stop the blows,
she watched her own destruction with horror.

Finally she could wound no more.
She turned and walked away -
leaving the heap of herself lying there.

It wasn't until she came back,
lay down on the floor next to herself,
held herself gently,
washed her bruises and blood with tears
that she could feel herself even wanting to open her eyes again.

I'm so sorry, she whispered thru her sobs.
I'm so sorry to do this to you.
How could I have done this too?
Hanging her head in shame,
she felt a touch on her face.
Reaching up from laying in her own lap,
herself stroked her face gently and whispered for her to hush.
That all they had was themselves.
and it was time to drop the shame
and to love each other for all they were

and to never let each other go.


Sharlyn said...

I struggle with this daily. How do I stop punishing myself, well I think I am getting there. The compassion is harder and will be taking more time. This lovely writing will help me though. The visualization touches my heart and I am feeling more compassion each time I read your tender words. Thank you!

linda marie said...

You have made me remember my compassion.

Diane in AR said...

WOW - what an amazing post and so visual and so good for helping us to remember to pull ourselves together when we get shattered or shatter ourselves. . .thanks so much terri. . .

terri st. cloud said...

thank you for leaving the comments. remembering compassion.......sigh...
it's so important, isn't it?

Karen Nyere said...

As Anne Guest-Jelley of Curvy Yoga says, "Don't pay twice". She went thru the same thing this weekend , as did I. Terr, I wonder what's happening with the planets? Anyway, beating yourself up for beating yourself up is "paying twice". I know, it's so hard to remove the layers , one by one, and get down to remembering that we are ALL trying our very best at any given time. Thankyou so much for this!

terri st. cloud said...

yes karen! i realized that paying it twice thing pretty quickly - thank goodness!! sorry you went thru something too......sending you a hug.....