bottom lines

i wrote today.
it wasn't easy stuff.
wasn't nice.
wasn't pretty.

i wrote about someone's life and what i had watched for over twenty years.
i needed to sit with it and get it out.
it's not something i can share here.
but there's a bottom line i can share -

don't waste it.
your life.
don't waste it.

don't spend your time on resentment
and things that don't matter.
open your eyes to the beauty of those around you
and all that they offer if you let them.

yeah, yeah, you nod and get ready to move on to the next thing.

i encourage you to stop for a second and think about it.
i'm betting every single one of us wastes time in resentment,
and doesn't see all the beauty that is around us.
or really appreciate the simple offerings of those nearby.
or we do things because we feel obligated, then resent whoever we've done the things for.
or grumble cause someone wasn't giving us enough of whatever.

that stuff catches up to us, i think.

i have this theory that who we are, what we focus on, and how we've tried to live
all comes out when we're old. it forms what we look like and our very presence.
i think it's always there at any age, but by the time you get old, it's become such
a part of you, it's written all over you.

it's written all over your very face.

and what do you want your face to look like?