cleaning and living

i got up early to go clean.
i don't remember ever doing that before.
i had planned on getting it all done last nite,
didn't,
so got up and figured i'd tackle it.
needed to get it out there for trash pick up.

it's my attic.
cleaning it out.
as much as i can possibly clean.
getting rid of everything i need to get rid of.
everything.

so much so that i went out and asked the trash guys if they
needed a hand with all the trash i put out there!

this is more than spring cleaning,
it's making room for a new phase in my life.
it's getting rid of my past.

there were donation piles, trash piles, giveaway piles,
piles of piles.

there's something about that kinda cleaning.
where you pick up something you were sure you could never
let go of, and you're perfectly okay with letting it go.

i saw how far i'd come and how much i had changed
and how little the need to hang on was in me.

i liked that.
specially with all the living fully thinking i've been doin' lately.

living fully isn't about hanging on.
it can't be.
cause when you do that, your hands are too full,
your life is too cluttered to have room for the new things awaiting you.

i've got one more big cleaning project ahead of me.
and i'm actually looking forward to it.

living fully isn't about hanging on.
it's about making room
and dancing with the open space of possibilities!