my safe spot

it doesn't really seem fair.
since he's my safe spot he gets to be the place
i kinda crash.
that doesn't seem to be good payback to someone
who makes you feel safe.

i try to make up for it in other ways, but sometimes
i wonder about it....

he said he can see it. he can watch the tension just
kinda wash off as the day goes on together. he can feel
the closed parts begin to open...

funny how darn well he knows me.

so there were a couple of crashes today. some were just
releasin' a lotta tension of things built up. one was
just sadness over a certain situation....

what's amazing to me is in between there's laughter,
practical talk, serious life talk, total goofiness, horse
play and even plain ol' quiet. we cover it all.

we were hangin' in the living room with the guys tonite,
he and i sittin' on the couch next to each other. i was
teasin' him and looked over at him, he looked back...
and we stared square at each other.

it was the weirdest thing....i just felt this strong solid
thing we shared.

oh yeah, i guess we'd call that a relationship.

it felt really strong and real.
and yeah, it should have after all we shared that day.
i just don't remember being struck with it quite that way.
bam.
there it was.
right there in his eyes.

sometimes i really can see this work we do together,
it actually does pay off!

feels kinda good......