was driving to meet the guys for dinner
and i was feeling really heavy and sad.
i didn't want to meet them this way.
it's sposed to be a fun dinner. so i
reached for my drug of choice.
caffeine.
caffeine always makes me crazy and makes
me laugh. the boys will hand me a soda when
they think i'm grouchy or sad. 'get her a
soda, bro. she needs one.'
i looked at the clock. are you crazy, terri?!
you'll be up all nite.
i don't care. dinner will be fun, and i'll get
some work done tonite.
so i drank sodas and laughed with my boys.
but as soon as it got quiet, i started thinking
again. i remembered the book i mentioned earlier.
'who dies.'
that book is packed full of wisdom.
i grabbed it.
i'm sure i'm going to be sharing bits and pieces
of it for a long time now....
here's what i just got out of it and am going to hold
while i work.
'this is perhaps the most difficult of the balancing
acts we come to learn; to trust the pain as well as
the light, to allow the grief to penetrate as it will
while keeping open to the perfection of the universe.'
whew.
i got work to do.
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