self doubt

i got to talk to a good friend of mine
for a few minutes today.
and i loved it.
she wrote me a note afterwards tho
and had had some self doubt about the call.

and her perceptions of the whole thing
were just plain ol' wrong. but they were
colored by self doubt.

darn.
that self doubt stuff sucks, doesn't it?!

what was so cool was she told me so i could
let her know what i saw. and what i saw was
entirely different and i loved her a ton.

self doubt is on my mind a lot right now.

i got hit by it really big this week.
and i don't think i'm quite over it yet.
um.
no.
i'm not over it at all.

so when i saw her do it, i was just blown
away. it can be so incredibly wrong, can't it?!

wow.
how the heck do we keep that toxic stuff away
from us?!

i guess it's what we focus on.
but shoot....sometimes it's just so hard not
to pay attention to it.

ugh.

i definitely want to get rid of that stuff...
not sure how.
but i think payin' attention is a start.