i think the universe has a weird sense of humor
sometimes....
did i just mention i was gonna be extra compassionate??
oh man.
i shouldn't say these things....
i actually started laughing about it with yo yo
just now.....
a young man that i've tried really really really
hard to help for years now just expressed how
he sees me as a liar. he didn't say it direct to
me, altho i think he and i need to have a
conversation about this....
the odd thing?
i've gone out of my way to always be straight up
with him so he can trust me.
i burst out laughing when i heard it because of
the way it was phrased. it was pretty funny.
but at the same time, it was like, go ahead,
twist that knife...
so i'm tellin' yo and i'm laughin and hurtin'
and i say 'that mean little rat.'
i hear it.
and i feel it.
and then it hits.
i remember that darn compassion thing.....
pour more on the world right now as the world is
low.....
shoot.
the mean little rat thought is soooo much easier.
it's a release, it appears to be a balm for the hurt
(altho, we all know better) and it feels justified
(again...we all know better with that too)
perfect timing...
gonna take it on my walk and see if i can get the
compassion for him. and for me too....i should prolly
get some in the deal too as it was a bum rap.
compassion has got to be better than anger and hurt.
and it's the season for it.....
how weird is life?
it is forever teachin' me to stretch.....
i think part of love is reachin' beyond your own gunk
and hurt to the other person....
that's gotta be compassion too....
makes sense, i guess....love and compassion have got
to be all part of the same misty stuff.
off to go step into the mist......
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