exploding skulls and logic brained guys

there's a new event in my life.
a once a week meet up with a purpose.
the purpose is to bond father and son.
father, son and i meet up and we just
be together.

today was meet up number two.
and i'm thinking these may turn into
something really good.

so i'm giving this some thought and trying
to come up with things that will help.
both father and son are very very logical.

we actually had some topics to talk about...
sciencey stuff that i was gonna try to
sit thru and maybe even participate with...
definitely smile and nod if i had to...

on my way over, i was listening to melissa
etheridge in the car. and there's this one
song that well.......it made we want to
explode out of my skull and thru the roof
of my car.

grin.
no kidding.

i know that father and son both have trouble
feeling their emotions. and so i thought this
would be interesting to bring up.

so i told them about the exploding skull feeling.
i told it with great feeling, great enthusiasm,
and great hand motions.

i wondered if they ever got that and if they
didn't did they want it???

a very interesting conversation followed.

i already knew our brains worked way different.
but i had no idea how different.

something father brought up that was easy to him,
i find as difficult as moving boulders with my
pinkie.

son agreed with father.
easy peasy.

i was stunned.

i'm still stunned.
some of the things they find so easy....
man, if they were easy for me, i gotta say,
i could just make myself into who i wanted to
be today. it would be that simple.

but um.
it's so not.

on the way home i put the song on again.

and the exploding skull feeling came back....
and i grinned.

okay.
it's okay.
they never get this feeling.
and i cannot imagine living without it.

i guess i'd rather try to move boulders with
my pinkies if it means i get to feel like my
skull is gonna explode with emotion sometimes.

sometimes i just love being so full with a feeling
that i think i won't be able to contain it all.

that....that is just........
well.....i don't know............
it's something i never ever want to lose.