sin

and so we talked of keeping secrets for other people.
(see post below)
and i left him with a story of how i once did that.
and that's one of the few things i truly regret in
my life.

i kept part of who i was hidden because it caused
shame to someone else.

i told him the story.
he personally knew all the players in the story
so it was a good one to tell.

told him i'd never do that again in my life.

that there was no cause for shame with what i had
done, and any shame that this person had felt was
their deal. their baggage. their issues.
not mine.

but i had bought into it and lost so much in the
bargain.

i would never do that again.

it's too late to go right that wrong now.
everyone involved has died.

and what's it matter anymore?
except as a lesson to me....

do not hide who you are for anyone's sake.

that doing that must be what they call a sin.

i grew up with the word sin as part of the religion
of my family.

it's only after i have left that religion and rarely
ever use that word, that i see the power of it.

and sometimes it seems to so fit.

to hide who you are because someone tells you
who you are is someone to be ashamed of...

wow.
that's got to be a triple whammy sin kinda thing.
it's bad for everyone involved.
and it's the kinda thing that gets in your cells
and has trouble getting out....
that's the kinda stuff i think sin is.

he didn't agree with me.
and ya know what?
i guess i didn't expect him to.

but that's okay....
because we've all got our own road to travel,
don't we?