had an interesting talk with a mom about the
struggles she watches between her son and his
i know the dad enough that i tried to offer some
insight about the dad's insecurities and how
he may feel threatened. that i just didn't think
he was really comfortable with certain things
i told her that i doubted he would do any reflecting
on that, but maybe it would help her understand it
more and cope better.
i didn't really think too much about the talk.
left it behind me.
or so i thought.
as i walked and thought of my dad today, that
very conversation came up in my thoughts.
my dad struggled with me a lot.
and at my healthier moments, i know that was
my dad's deal.
at my weakest moments, i'm sure i'm just an
all around disappointment.
so i thought of that conversation.
the obvious part is connecting the dad's and
their being threatened and uncomfortable.
logically i know that.
mostly i get it.
sometimes i totally have it.
today i was strong enough to be fine with
that theory and believe it.
but here's where i went one step further than
the more comfortable *i* am with MYSELF, the less
i will fret and fuss and accept these false beliefs
i hold on to when i'm feelin' weak.
MY level of comfort of myself will change everything.
so along with awareness (see post below) i want to
work on my level of comfort with myself.
i KNOW that will make a big difference in my life.
not sure how to do that.
but i'm pretty sure it's key.
so comfort with myself is the goal today....
i'll see how i can toy with that a bit....
maybe something will come along today to show me
you just never know..........