Friday, April 3, 2009

crying/laughing/living/dying

so i called.
to be there.
but not.
cause no one can be there for her now.

her pop's dyin'.
soon, prolly.

he's coming up for the last birthday
celebration, the last visit....the whole
deal.

and it's one wicked, complicated story that
goes along with the whole thing.

which makes the pain all that more wicked
complicated.

i got a little choked up twice.
tried not to.

hung up and reached for the phone.
wanted to touch bob.
no.
left him be.
he's got meetings.

let him think.

i'll go cry.
cause life hurts sometimes.

and then i'm gonna laugh at lunch.
cause life rocks sometimes.

if i'm gonna really live it, i need
to be okay touching all parts of it.

whew.

sometimes it's a lot.

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