empowering stuff....

one other time in my life have i gotten
the message that i did in the blog below.

that it's not about what anyone else has
done to me. it's all about what i do to
myself.

i think i prolly blogged that story.
it was a powerful one.

a visualization with my inner child.
calling her out to talk to her and find
out who all's really hurt her.

and the answer that came out shocked
the daylights outta me.

it was me.

all the times i let her down.
all the times i ignored her.
pushed her back.
buried her.

it was all about what i had done.
not what anyone else had done.

while it was a hard moment,
it was also a powerful moment.

we are NOT victims of others.
(said with a grain of salt...as you know
there are times with violence and children
and all that stuff we ARE truly victims)
but mostly......or for me anyway....
*i* am not a victim of others.
only myself.

which means i have the power to be the
opposite.....
i was going to say 'victor'?!
but how about 'whole'???

i have the power for that........

and i love that.

all those other people...
all those other hurts......
all that other beating up........

it doesn't matter.
they're gone.
they're over.
they're past.

i matter.
i'm here.
i'm just starting.
i'm now.

how powerful is that?!