harder and better.....

i see the growth in trust inside myself.
towards him. towards us.

and yet i still see the miles to go to
get where i want....

we had a pow wow last nite.
there's something that's really bothering
me that we need to hash thru.
and we agreed we would.

but first we dealt with our love.
and our trust.

and seeing clearly.
and loving deeply.

that right there tells me how much i've
grown in trust. i don't need to 'fix' the
problem right this second. i need to feel
what's between us.

it occurred to me this morning....
maybe it's a lot easier having someone
NOT love you completely. having someone
who really doesn't love you for who you
are.

because then you can whine, and be a
victim, and never really have to live
who you are....cause they can't deal with
it anyway.

in that sense, it might be easier.
not better. nope. don't mean that.

maybe it's a lot harder having someone
say 'go ahead. be.'

cause then you have to.

and then the only person standing in your
way is you.