wow, i woke up agitated from some really
as i walked i could just feel it.
amazing as i felt so calm and gentle inside
it's not a bad thing tho.
i can see i really want to make some changes
in my life. my dreams were filled with things
i no longer want in my life.
how to logistically make the changes tho?
if they were straight forward things, i would
just make the changes.
ah, but is anything straight forward???
i sit back and hold my head and think 'how??'
because it seems too overwhelming to find a
well.....i guess that's where the moment by
moment theory comes in.
these things involve other people in my life.
i have no control over what they do. so, short
of walkin' out totally on these people, i can't
figure out what to do.
what if i just take it moment by moment.
and from moment to moment refuse to accept less
than what i feel is healthy.
i think i can do that.
i've been trying to do that.
and i just feel more and more impatient with the
maybe that's the natural course of things.
and maybe i just need to keep at it.
moment by moment.