keep tryin'.....

wow, i woke up agitated from some really
agitating dreams.

as i walked i could just feel it.
amazing as i felt so calm and gentle inside
yesterday.

it's not a bad thing tho.

i can see i really want to make some changes
in my life. my dreams were filled with things
i no longer want in my life.

how to logistically make the changes tho?

if they were straight forward things, i would
just make the changes.

ah, but is anything straight forward???

i sit back and hold my head and think 'how??'
because it seems too overwhelming to find a
solution.

well.....i guess that's where the moment by
moment theory comes in.

these things involve other people in my life.
i have no control over what they do. so, short
of walkin' out totally on these people, i can't
figure out what to do.

what if i just take it moment by moment.

and from moment to moment refuse to accept less
than what i feel is healthy.

i think i can do that.
i've been trying to do that.
and i just feel more and more impatient with the
situations.

maybe that's the natural course of things.

and maybe i just need to keep at it.

moment by moment.