a seed....

another walkless morning.
this will make me insane soon.
thursday nothing will stop the walk tho...

for now, i grab a quick moment outside
and breathe in this gorgeous cool air.
quick glimpse at the sky....and turn to
get ready for a short trip away.

his pop is on my mind this morning.
part of me is dreading this trip.
it will be hard to see him.

he's unhappy and not doing well.
how long can he last like this?
it will be hard.

i stopped to read a couple blog posts this
morning...two friends....both struggling
right now.

want to leave comments for both...words seem
too lame to me to offer...they both know they're
in my heart. how many times can i tell them?

my gosh, i've got that guy thing inside me.
i just want to fix everyone's problems.
good thing i'm not god, i'd go crazy tryin'
to keep up.

and yeah....i want to change everything.
for these incredible women with their heavy
pain....for his pop with his life of sadness....
for a whole lotta people.

since that doesn't seem to be the way it works...
maybe i just have to keep reminding all these
people that they matter.

maybe that's all i can do.

yeah, i can do that with words.
but today, i feel like i need more than words.

so today i'm gonna hold these people in my heart.
gonna put this seed i carry around sometimes in
my pocket.

and written on this big ol' seed??
'i have great faith in a seed...
i am prepared to expect wonders.' -thoreau

every time i touch it or notice it,
i'm gonna feel them in my heart.

cause i'm kooky enough to think that makes a
difference.