a conscious effort

i have been deliberately workin' on keepin'
a good mood.

yep.
i have been keepin' that in my mind.
josh had the flu, and i thought i'd bliss it
away and not get his germs if i kept happy.
(seems to have worked!)

so i consciously worked on this.
and have been doin' great.

then yesterday something happened that knocked
me outta sorts.

darn.

now what?

i was typing up an order and just feelin' totally
outta whack.

darn.
darn.

i was doin' so good.

okay.
stop.
WHY do you feel this way?

i answered.
it was easy.
obvious.

okay.
look at the big picture.
again, easy.

okay. look how it doesn't jive.
you can indulge and feel this way...
but there really isn't any reason to.
you can adjust the problem so it works out just
fine for you.
so? whatchya gonna do??

and get this.....
i dropped it! i said 'yeah. forget that.'

and i did.
i actually did.

i went back to the good mood.

wow.
i wanna do this more often.

i think actually consciously working toward the good
mood has helped a lot.

it's not a pretend things are okay kinda thing....
it's a real thing.

and it's been workin'.
granted, there's been no huge big problems.
but most of the time there's no huge big problems.
so if i can just do this for those times....well, shoot,
that would be a huge leap all in itself!

i'm totally diggin' this.