i kinda hit a wall last nite.
something had to change inside me.
and i think it is. it did. or it's
happening right now.
which is awesome cool.
i walked around the house thinking about
the things i really liked in my life.
was focusing on gratitude.
with a real desperate feel inside.
so when i said things like 'i like my house.'
well i didn't just say 'i like my house.'
there was this big emphasis on the word 'like'.
i LIKE my house.
say it with meaning.
say it with drama.
that was really cool.
so i started walkin' around listing things.
i LIKE this.
and i LIKE that.
and each time i said it with this determination
and strength that would knock anything flat that
got in my way.
it really really helped.
i don't remember ever doin' that before.
i don't know if it was the drama in my voice,
the emphasis with the word, that kinda thing....
or just the fact that i had hit a wall.
but as i walked around LIKING things,
i feel like i also took something,
wrestled in down on the floor and came up
feelin' way way better.
i usually think that we need to hold things and
be gentle and accept things and allow things inside
us. that seems to be the way things work best.
but i don't know.....
there was a wrestling match inside me last nite.
and it felt really really good.
it felt really really right.
i LIKED wrestling.
i think i needed that.