around the table....

i was thinking about something.
trying to roll it over in my head a little
bit as it felt like it was worth mulling.

i was in the kitchen puttering and thinking.
we all ended up in there together. the last
of the holiday goofin' was about to take
place.

i could feel myself getting wrapped up in
the thoughts. knowing they'd think something's
wrong if i stayed quiet, and knowing i wasn't
quite ready to put it down, i included them
in on it.

'i've got this thing rollin' around and i'm
wonderin' what you think about it.'

what followed was one of the best conversations
i've ever had with all of them as a group.

i think why it was so good was not one of us
had 'the answer.' we jumped in and started
exploring.

josh thinks like i do. he'll take personal
experiences, relate and try to figure it out
that way.

yo yo is reading some fantastic books so he'll
throw in stuff he's reading and try to tie that
in. which totally led us down some interesting
paths.

zakk threw out a whopper of a question which
led us down a whole different path which totally
tied in at the same time. when he answered it
with his opinion, i smiled. i love it when he
shares what's inside him. the fact that he was
touching zen stuff just about made me fall out
of my chair.

we all asked, answered, questioned, thought and
wondered.

yo asked me 'what do you think about this part,
mom?'

i didn't know.
wouldn't have explored that part.
said 'i don't know.'

well that wasn't good enough.
he wanted a real answer.
okay, so i thought about it.
and we all started thinking about it.

it was the coolest thing.

we sat around my kitchen table doin' nothin'
but playin with these thoughts.

we finished up after a bit, and went on to
real holiday goofin'....but later i was trying
to figure out why that conversation was so
incredible.

i think it's cause it was honest searching.
no one had any answers. everyone felt safe
to throw out a thought and say 'what do you
think of this one? where does this take us?'
and we all worked together to search thru it.

ever since they were little guys, i asked their
opinions on things. even when they were little
it was always worth asking. something good always
came from it.

i think a lifetime of asking them things brought
us to the table last nite.

they're not little anymore.
three young men offering their thoughts.
and i tell ya, it was one of the best conversations
i've ever had.