oh i thought i had it.
i mean i so thought i had it.
it's so easy terri!
just don't be attached to the outcome!
and you're all set!!
i'm interacting right now with someone
i've interacted with for years now.
and i have dents in the walls from where
i banged my head over and over during
those years. and in that head banging,
i learned something....
it's not mine.
and i have!
okay...so it's taken years.
but i've done it!
so now, we're interacting and i know this.
let go. it's not mine.
don't be attached to the outcome.
and i gotta tell you, i rock!
i'm doin' it!
and it's so workin' beautifully for me!
so i puff my little self around and tell
myself i know the answer now. and off i go
for my walk to think on it.
there's one slight hitch here.....
I'M ATTACHED TO A THOUSAND OUTCOMES!
i mean really really really attached.
oh yeah, i can nod knowingly at you and say
i understand i shouldn't be, or that's not
enlightened or helpful.....
but so what?
I STILL AM!!!
i've let go of this one cause i've gotten
hurt a ton, so much so that i just don't
that's the honest truth.
well....not totally honest truth....
cause i still do care a little bit.
but not like i used to.
so maybe i haven't let go.
maybe i just got beaten into submission.
i KNOW that the way to go is to let go
and i can see way clearly i don't wanna.
so i'm laughin......and shakin' my head
and thinking i got a looooooong way to go
to hit enlightenment!
so much for puffin' around with the answers.
looks like it's back to the drawing board....