sometimes i really really wish that life had some
black and white answers. sometimes i just do.
a very dear friend is having some pretty big
relationship problems right now. my heart was
sickened as we talked about them. what happens to
that love that we start out with? what happens
to that??? why does it get so awful sometimes??
oh, i know.
i really do.
i've lived the divorce thing.
i know the places it all went wrong, and all the
mistakes and all the growing and changing.
and i guess cause i have lived the divorce thing,
i never hear of relationship problems without getting
a little bit sick.
i cried about it yesterday. just for a little bit.
there's something about the happiness that turns into
something so dark that just is hard for me to hold.
and then today, two different women i adore wrote
about new guys in their lives. and it's fun and it's
happy and i wanted to hear more from both of them.
i lit up, i laughed, i teased, and i hoped this is
the guy for each of them. with all my heart, i really
and then i thought of my other friend.
and i wondered.
relationships are so hard.
seriously, how many do you know around you that you'd
want to have in your own life? i can list them off on
one hand. one stinkin' hand. and i wouldn't use all my
fingers on that hand. and i know of a whole lotta
and yet we all want them so much.
we all need them so much.
i do wish it was black and white and we just found
the person we loved and it was all happy and good then
forever and ever.
and then i think of my own.
yeah, sometimes i wish it was that easy.
yeah, sometimes i really do.
at the same time tho...i think of all that we've traveled
together....and i'm grateful for every bit of it.
i still think love is hard.
and sometimes i don't think i'm much of a romantic.
and then, sometimes, like today, when my heart leaps
for my friends, i know that i still am a darn romantic.
and yeah, that's a good thing.
love. it's so so so precious.
and it really really needs to be taken care of.
when it's lost, there's something so deeply sad in that
and that's not just a partner kinda thing....
it's everyone around you.
take care of the love....
there's nothing as precious......