the nite sky

had a chance to drive a little bit last nite.
went to a town about an hour up to hang out
in a windy parking lot for a bit.

yeah, kinda sounds like i was in high school
again....but nah...it all had to do with a shop
that carries my work....

the drive up and back and the wind in that parking
lot felt sooooo good. people were getting really
chilly. i didn't feel the chill. i just felt like
the wind was blowin' gunk off of me. and it felt
so darn good.

drivin' home it was dark and i was thinking about
the night sky. i love the image of the sky inside
me.

i really do.

and since yesterday morning, i've really been dwelling
on the idea of the light inside me.

i want to hold that light and know it's there
even in challenging situations.

so i got to thinking of the stars in the night
sky. what if i could combined the two images of
light and sky!

for a brief moment i pictured millions of stars
all over my insides. like if you lifted up a
flap of skin and pulled it back, the underside
of the skin would be covered in stars!

ohhh! i saw it and felt it ever so quickly -
my whole body felt electrified.

then i pictured being in a challenging situation
and holding the stars in my hands. just holding
them and knowing they were part of me.

i have never once pictured the nite sky inside of
me. how has that happened???

the nite sky is exactly what i feel right now.
the deep deep darkness.....with gazillions of bright
lights shining steadily on.

i am sooooooo holding that today.