sigh

so last nite i sat and asked the universe
where i'm sposed to go.
what should i do???

and darn it all if i didn't get 'just keep
workin' on opening your heart' today.

and i gotta tell you, i feel like a grouchy
ol' bear the more i sit with that.

it would be WAY WAY easier to hear something
like 'sell tee shirts' or 'write many many
wonderful books' anything but what i find
the hardest thing in the world to do.....

and yeah, yeah, yeah, it's what i WANT to do.
but just cause i want to doesn't mean i don't
get lazy about it and figure it's 'good enough'
a lotta times when i could do more.

but if i feel like i'm sposed to be doing it...
my gosh.......i don't know....it makes me
grouchy.

that's kinda funny.......if i could stop bein'
grouchy long enough to see.....

what i want most is what i feel was my answer
this morning and i'm mad about it.

okay, ter.....you weirdo.
are you THAT lazy???

sigh.