we were sittin' around the table havin' lunch.
there was a ketchup bottle on the table and a jar
josh turned to me and asked me how i was doin' with
some stuff that landed on me last nite.
i told him i had figured something out.
i picked up the ketchup bottle.
'this is the deal here.' i said.
'this is what's goin' on.'
then i picked up the salsa jar and said
'this is what i want to be goin' on. this is
what i keep tryin' to see.'
'ohhhh they're both red' he said.
they're both red.
but they're totally different.
i need to know this is what is.
and i shook that ketchup bottle in the air.
i need to stop wishing for this.
and i plunked the salsa down.
and i figured that out.
and i think that's way way important.
why twist yourself up tryin' to make something
into something it's not???
why not accept things and go from there?
and the why is what i need to sit with.
and then accept my very human reasons.
offer compassion to that part of me.....
and then move forward.
i actually thought it was a kinda freeing thought.....