so i can see a really big thing i need to
something i need to learn for my insides.
i can see it.
it's more of a knowing in my bones that i have
to just get down in there.
not sure how.
but i see the things that press the buttons
and i see the things that set me spinning and
i think they can help me.
it's like i'm seein' them from a different angle
like maybe they're not bad things.
those things that press my buttons and spin me.
maybe just maybe....
they're gonna help me.
and somehow that thought gave me a little more
courage this morning.....
mix it with this one.......
driving last nite we were talkin'.
and i said that it was really okay what was happening
as it was stretching me.
and if everyone had to have a 'hard' thing in their life
to teach them things, i would gladly take what i'm
struggling with as my hard thing.
it beats a lotta other hard things.
and suddenly, it seemed more of a gift than a burden.
between the two, there's almost excitement in me.