good stuff.......

and so i thought i'd treat myself with my love book and find
all the answers i was looking for. yeah...well......at least try.

only one problem.
it's a dry book. and the section i was in was not exciting me
at all.

i need a little bit easier/lighter.
and i smiled as i grabbed 'tuesdays with morrie'....
hardly a light story.
but so much easier to read.

i just needed to feel the presence of morrie that runs thru
that book.

and then i hit the part where he's tellin' mitch about 'detaching.'

something i have only kinda grasped.
i get confused as mitch did......
when he asked morrie......."aren't you always talking about
experiencing life?...well, how can you do that if you're detached?"

and morrie goes on to explain to him that the way to really detach means
to let the emotions penetrate you fully.
'that's how you are able to leave it.'

mitch joins me in my confusion and says 'i'm lost.'

and morrie goes on....

'but by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself
to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them
fully and completely. you know what pain is. you know what love is.
you know what grief is. and only then cay you say, 'all right, i have
experienced that emotion. i recognize that emotion. now i need to
detach from that emotion for a moment.'

and something i so loved.....

'i know you think this is just about dying, but it's like i keep
telling you. when you learn how to die, you learn how to live.'

mitch goes on to describe morrie....

'morrie's approach was...... turn on the faucet.
wash yourself with the emotion. it won't hurt you. it will only
help. if you let the fear inside, if you pull it on like a familiar
shirt, then you can say to yourself, 'all right, it's just fear, i
don't have to let it control me. i see it for what it is.'

and THAT felt good to read tonite........