josh called with something on his mind.
we talked for awhile and were finishin' up
when he said 'wait! wait! how YOU doin' today??'
i smiled and said 'oh, good. i wrote some stuff
about god today and it felt good.'
'you just never know what you'll hear when you ask,
do you, josh?'
'no, mom, i really don't.'
we laughed and said goodbye.
turned out that god was leakin' out in all my writing
yesterday. it sure is a leaky god time around here.
here's my favorite.
i looked for you in their stories
and i couldn't find you there.
i looked for you in my own stories
and i lost you there.
crying, i released all parts of you
and waited in silence.
a forever silence.
wondering if i'd ever see you again.
wondering if i'd ever touch you again.
slowly, you crept back into my being.
slowly, i understood you never left.
quietly, i watched.
quietly i felt.
trembling, i stood in awe.
trembling, i bowed my head
as your presence filled me.