a slice of heaven

i really don't know what it is....and it seems really
odd to me that it's now......this month.....but i seem
to be getting all kinds of reminders about suicide.

there have been so many that i'm really stepping back
and wondering about it....

and...i'm stepping back and appreciating the people in
my life. and their presence here with me.

and this morning, after one more reminder, i turn to my
day...a day where i get to spend the whole darn thing
with my sons. all three of them! a day i have no expectations
of anything and have nothing i have to get done. a day
i get to walk away from all the work and forget about it
for a bit and just look at their faces and hear them
talk and banter.

a day i worked hard to get.
and a day i'm gonna soak up with all i've got.

a day that will be filled with things that i think will
really be the best tending of my heart that i could ever do.

these days matter.
these days are precious.
and i wanted to remind everyone once again, that you matter.
whether you feel that today or not....you do.

hang on to that.
hang on to life.

because the days that are so delicious they feel like
a slice of heaven do come around...

today is one for me. and i'm gonna slurp it up with all i've got~!