ah,i finally made it to the actual birthday today!
fifty years ago i was born.
wow, that's weird.
i walked and thought about it.
if i could just remember where i was BEFORE these fifty years,
i'd be all set, i thought. i could figure everything out then.
yeah, why not?
and then i remembered really really really seriously tryin' to figure
that out when i was a kid. i remember laying there on my bed in the dark
thinking hard and thinking that if i could just remember...
i laughed out loud as i walked remembering that.
i pictured my room, my bed, the slanted wall that was over my head as
i tried SO HARD to figure it out.
i laughed and thought.......okay, you haven't changed much.
i looked up at the clouds.
there was the perfect heaven kinda picture you see in paintings.
and i grinned.
i have no idea about any of it.
but it's my birthday.
and i do know i'm gonna enjoy it today.
all of it.
the huge mix of life that it is.
all of it.
i looked up at heaven there in the clouds and gave a wink.
here's to life, i thought.
and turned back to my day.