Thursday, October 6, 2011

good stuff for me....

i've been playin' around with my new insight ever since i had it.
(see post below)

this whole thought here - "can you imagine treating life like your partner? your lover? your best friend?"
has grabbed me and caught my imagination.



i think it's kinda funny too because with how much i've been thinking about it, it reminds
me of how much i've thought about my relationship with my partner. my gosh, there's been
a ton of thought and effort that's gone into that. and this has the same kinda feeling which
is making me smile.


interestingly enough, i'm in the relationship section in "women who run with the wolves.'
when i started,  i was indeed reading it thinking of bob and i. but last nite, in reading it,
i was thinking of me and life. and amazingly enough, it was fitting.


here's two of my favorite sentences from last nite - 
'Fear is a poor excuse for not doing the work.'
"If you're alive, you are fearful.'


i smiled. those were the first sentences i read and just smiled.


and then i read this -
'Three things differentiate living from the soul versus living from ego only.
They are: the ability to sense and learn new ways, the tenacity to ride a rough road,
and the patience to learn deep love over time......
....It would be a mistake to think that it takes a muscle-bound hero to accomplish
this. It does not. It takes a heart that is willing to die and be born and die and be born
again and again.'


i think that i got the idea that we had to die and be reborn.
i think i knew that when i got divorced and i wasn't thrilled with the concept, but then again, i was.
cause i knew it had to happen to create me.


i just don't think i realized it was a repetitive thing.
i may have said that, but i'm pretty sure i didn't have that deep in my bones. 


it's all making me think a ton.
and it's all making me realize something that i deeply want -
i want to have a love relationship with life.


go figure.
seems like a perfect time to pull out the rumi.

3 comments:

Merry ME said...

Yesterday's theme for me was fear. The subject seemed to come up in every conversation I had, even with a stranger at the grocery store. I'm getting kind of scared about my "adventure", caught up in details of getting there and the what ifs of traveling. I'm nervous about new places and faces. Excited, yes, but fearful.

And my sister is leaving today which makes me sad and fearful on an inner child level. As her big sister I'm saying "Live the Adventure" as if I knew what that might feel like!

So first thing this morning, I read this post and am touched by the quote. "It takes a heart that is willing to die and be reborn again.... That's really the essence of goodbye's isn't it? Dying a little (or a lot) inside with all good(bad)byes entail. But also being willing to be open to the possibility of (re)birth with every new "hello". It's the Christian message. The message of Autumn. Being willing to die and be reborn. I will hang on to this thought today as I look forwad to the days to come.
Thanks

terri said...

mary, what a cool comment. i think it's so neat when we know the fear's runnin' thru us. so many times i don't even know!!! and it IS one heck of a quote, isn't it? i'm holdin' that quote close today too!
and by the way.....i can't wait to hear stories from your adventure!

Dan McGaffin said...

This phrase really grabbed me.

"i think that i got the idea that we had to die and be reborn.
i think i knew that when i got divorced and i wasn't thrilled with the concept, but then again, i was.
cause i knew it had to happen to create me."

I got the image of the phoenix from your first line and then the first line of a little something I posted in the forum came to me. Thanks again for your inspirational thoughts.