good stuff for me....

i've been playin' around with my new insight ever since i had it.
(see post below)

this whole thought here - "can you imagine treating life like your partner? your lover? your best friend?"
has grabbed me and caught my imagination.


i think it's kinda funny too because with how much i've been thinking about it, it reminds
me of how much i've thought about my relationship with my partner. my gosh, there's been
a ton of thought and effort that's gone into that. and this has the same kinda feeling which
is making me smile.


interestingly enough, i'm in the relationship section in "women who run with the wolves.'
when i started,  i was indeed reading it thinking of bob and i. but last nite, in reading it,
i was thinking of me and life. and amazingly enough, it was fitting.


here's two of my favorite sentences from last nite - 
'Fear is a poor excuse for not doing the work.'
"If you're alive, you are fearful.'


i smiled. those were the first sentences i read and just smiled.


and then i read this -
'Three things differentiate living from the soul versus living from ego only.
They are: the ability to sense and learn new ways, the tenacity to ride a rough road,
and the patience to learn deep love over time......
....It would be a mistake to think that it takes a muscle-bound hero to accomplish
this. It does not. It takes a heart that is willing to die and be born and die and be born
again and again.'


i think that i got the idea that we had to die and be reborn.
i think i knew that when i got divorced and i wasn't thrilled with the concept, but then again, i was.
cause i knew it had to happen to create me.


i just don't think i realized it was a repetitive thing.
i may have said that, but i'm pretty sure i didn't have that deep in my bones. 


it's all making me think a ton.
and it's all making me realize something that i deeply want -
i want to have a love relationship with life.


go figure.
seems like a perfect time to pull out the rumi.