pickin' up the choices

the cold water was flowing over me.
it felt so so so good to cool down.

it's too warm to sleep around here, let alone exercise.
yet i had gotten some of both in and felt good about that.

as the coolness soaked in my veins, i thought of the choices
life pushed me into.

i wouldn't exercise if i didn't need to.
i'd sleep late and eat a lot and be lazy.
but the thing is, that feels cruddy. to feel good, i gotta watch
what i eat and move around a bit. it's not really a choice.

if i want this, i gotta do that.

i thought of my work.
it's been so challenging lately.
finally tho, it hit a new level of challenging and THAT is what
has forced me outta my box. finally, finally, i'm doing things i need
to do that i wouldn't have done if not pushed. and it actually feels
good somewhere deep under it all.

it's another 'if i want this, i gotta do that.'
if i want to eat, well, then i gotta make this work.

as i dried off, i kept thinking about choices. even just how we approach
things is a choice - our attitudes we bring to the table.

it was good timing as i came down to my computer and a group email
exchange i was doing with two others. and i had to laugh, i was the only
one having a good time with it.

i noticed and thought about choices.
i think i can pull it off today......you know, pay attention.
and make good ones. it seems to be resting in my mind in a good way today.

i want to stop whining and grumbling and start thinking 'okay, this is a choice,
what do i do now?' that truly changes everything.

i know that. but haven't been doing it lately.
actually, i've been doin' a whole lot of whining lately.
that gets old.

putting the whining down and pickin' up the choices.
great way to start the week!