i looked at my sons and filled with gratitude.
i held his hand and filled with love.
i was so empty and weary i forgot what love felt like.
i was so full and grateful, i forgot what frustration felt like.
my inner child hid.
i went and held her hand.
i listened to the wind blow forever
and finally went and sat in it.
i remembered i was a child of the universe.
i went to look at the fairy houses that stirred my soul last year.
they changed them.
the moss and magic were gone.
i looked at the majesty of the buildings and wondered about
the ego and power inside them.
and found the magic again as i watched the sun setting over the city.
i sat in the darkness.
i lit the candles.
i sang along to the christmas music.
i whispered prayers to the sky.
i put a star gently on a friend.
i sat on my couch soaking up the living room.
and i knew i was ready for christmas.