my energy had gotten heavy.
i noticed it and wasn't liking it.
things like getting tired easily.
or not laughing as much.
or just plain ol' feelin' heavy.
or dwelling on the negative.
'i need to raise my energy' i announced to my family.
and yeah, i did.
what the heck you gonna do to do that?
i didn't know.
but i was aware of it.
so i tried things.
tried to laugh more,
tried to enjoy more.
tried to appreciate more.
tried to just keep moving around more.
but it was just that - trying -
not always pulling it off.
and when i pulled it off, still not feeling the realness of it.
and i wasn't sure how good trying was gonna be without the realness.
but that's the reason i was trying -
i didn't have the realness.
so i didn't see any other choice.
and now i'm thinking trying and moving around are a good combo -
even when it feels too forced.
because today i feel totally different than i have for days!
i do believe i've had an energy shift.
and i'm thinking a lot of it has to do with trying to shift it.
there's times i'm legitimately gonna just feel down.
and i need to allow those times.
but there are times something's just stuck inside that needs
a little jostling......
i want to know when to jostle, and how to jostle.
you'd think i'd know by now.
but i'm just learning........