Saturday, August 30, 2008

i choose comfortable

okay.
so no one believes i'm shy.
but ohhhhh i sooooo am.

goin' to a wedding today.
really lookin' forward to gettin' dressed up
and goin' out with my guy. smilin' about that.
but then it hit me....
i'm not going to know ANYONE at this thing!
not one person.
not even the bride or groom.
great.
great.

and my shyness has kicked in.
i know it's prepare now or i'm gonna get so
quiet i'll disappear.

so how can i make this interesting and not so
hard??

i'm thinking it would be so cool to feel really
centered inside. really comfortable.
just totally at ease with whoever i'm standing
near.

yeah, that'd be great.
BUT HOW???

i always think of what a friend told me about
art gigs...just fake it til you make it.
just pretend you're an artist.

if i got in the right frame of mind, i could do it.
i gotta do it the very first second or it's lost.

so okay.
i could pretend i'm comfortable.
grin.
i could pretend i'm centered.

yeah.
fake it til you make it.

okay.
i'm gonna do that......

why not?
it sure beats goin' in shy.

ah!
this is a choice too, isn't it?
okay.
i'll choose comfortable.

here we go.....

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

dude . you SOOOO don't have to fake it... for real.. i mean its a good thought and all.. fake it til you make it.. but here's the thing.. some parts of you are shy.. and yet you live outloud.. take this blog for instance.. the whole world can see it.. you are broadcasting your soul to every person in the world who choose to click and read . so .. how about you just REMEMBER THAT.. that you are a light that shines and is willing to not only share outside of her comfort zone but do so willingly.. i say DON'T FAKE IT.. just be the brilliant, amazing, funny, incredible, beautiful, sexy, earthy, incredible person that you are.. the REAL t i know and love beyond the moon.. the one who smiles so wide she lights up a friggin city.. the one that laughs so hard.. you can see her shake.. the one that rocks out to ozzy lyrics and fixes oil tanks, the one who knows how to be a woman and owns fishnets...

be YOU .. without shame
don't need to fake shit darlin
shy or not
you are a perfect package
and its time you just let loose with that idea

i love you
you fancy nancy

xo xo
d