the wisdom of the ages....kinda

amazing how things come together....

a talk with a friend here. an email from
a friend there. reading the thoughts
in a book given to me by yet another friend.
thoughts shared by all the friends in my life
whirled inside of me yesterday as i went to
shop for a candle holder.

i have been thinking for days of a way in which
to honor my dad's passing tomorrow.

this 'flow' thought i had the other day....about
life flowin' thru and out of me...that's been
a really big one for me. really big. and i thought
that i might want to consciously work with that
on friday. a friend suggested i light a candle
while i do that.

i thought of the menorah i have been so loving.
i thought ofthe act of ritual that i used to
include in my life and haven't for years.
of how i missed it.
i thought of the sacred feminine i had been reading
about.

so when i found the grecian urn kinda vessel thing...
i knew i had found my candle holder.
it reminded me so much of the book i was reading and
the symbolism with the vessel and the feminine.

i had already been given the perfect candle as a
gift from someone special.
and yeah, when i brought the vessel home, the candle
looked like it was made for it. it fit/matched
perfectly.

this is now my candle that i will sit with when i'm
workin' on letting life flow thru me. when i want to
consciously sit and visualize touching but not holding
the parts of life that seem too big for me.

i thought i would start tomorrow, light the candle,
work on things flowin' thru and do some writing.

what better way to honor my dad than to try to honor me
and life and my interactions with it??

and the things i'll let flow thru?
things between my dad and i.
what a way to start.

it feels so right.
and it felt like the wisdom of the ages came together
for me yesterday. or at least, the wisdom of my friends.
they whirled inside of me, helped guide me, and held
me while i figured it out.