healing music

i hadn't realized how much i had been keeping in.
and how much had really been going on inside of me.

which is saying something because i knew i was keeping a lot in
and i knew a lot had been going on inside of me.

maybe what i didn't realize was how badly i needed someone
to come and touch those spots inside of me.

but it didn't take long to realize.

i sat at her event last nite listening to her.
it only adds that she's one of my best friends, i know her heart
and soul and we share our struggles together.

that only added to the power.

she started singing, and i started crying.

at first it was just the occasional tear and then they were
running down my face. and then at one point i really thought
i might have to just leave and go into the bathroom.

she was touching everything that needed touching inside of me.

josh was sitting in front of me and turned around and looked when
he heard this big snuffle come out of me. oh man. i was tryin'
hard to be quiet. but it was hitting deep and moving everything
around that had been stuck.

and then she did a special song, unexpected, and for me.
the inner child song that i actually use sometimes to work on some
healing stuff.

yeah. well, you can imagine.

but i tell ya what.......it's like little terri finally felt noticed.
it's like everything inside of me finally felt seen and heard.

and i had no idea that was weighing so heavily on me.

sometimes i try to just hold this stuff, deal with it and 'handle it'....
and i'm not sure we can ever really do that by ourselves.

and then music.....there is something about it that just slips into
those cracks inside us...and i had so many cracks inside me last nite.
it slipped right in, loosened everything up and completely soothed me.

if you haven't listened to this amazing singer yet......you gotta go hear her.

and if you've been trying hard to hold it all together on your own -
at the very least, go put on some music that will open you up and tumble
your inside walls down. it truly seems needed.