who you've become

ha!
i just unplugged a massive amount of cords that went into a battery backup.
as soon as i turned the backup off, everything went out.
computer, printer, phone, light.
everything.

bam.

hmmmm....

you can do this, ter.
i breathed a bit faster as i was nervous.
if i couldn't put it back together, i was stuck as no one is around right now.

it's right in the middle of a work day.
a bit dumb on my part....

but as you can see, i'm up and running.

ha!
ha!

there was a time i wouldn't have even tried.

last nite i moved a four drawer filing cabinet up three steps
and across my house. got a dolly and a ramp.

again.....there was a time i wouldn't have even tried.

someone told me this morning that i've changed a lot and i can
handle the changes in my life now because of that.

i liked that.

i forget i change and grow.
i forget i learn.
i doubt myself.
i fear my own weaknesses and lose track of my strengths.

i'm thinking i'm not the only one.

look back ten years.
where were you?
how much stronger are you?
what all have you learned?
how many areas have you incorporated what you've learned?

when you're afraid, is it ultimately your own abilities you're doubting?
look back.
see.
own what you've become.
own who you've become.