Monday, December 29, 2008

a request

i'm just barely gettin' movin' here.
figure it's time to start diggin' out and
findin' my desk again....

got an email this morning that i haven't
even processed yet. i've gotta go take a walk
and sit with it before i can respond to it.

and yet part of it i can hold. the beautiful
part....

the part that's too much at this moment, and
requires a walk is the part about three young
people dying ten days before christmas in a car
accident.

my friend's nephew and his best friend and his
best friend's girlfriend. her nephew as 19. i'm
figurin' they're all 19 or very close to it....

zakk's almost 17, yo's 20....it's just way too
close to process without being outside...

but here's the part i'm holding right now, and
am kinda amazed at.....

she's struggling, her whole family is struggling.
and she wrote asking if i'd ask everyone i knew
if they could send 'prayers, vibes, chants-whatever
they feel is correct for them- out to not only our
family, but also the families who lost their kids
in this horrible tragedy. this has affected not only
our families, but also the huge network of friends
that james, john and aubrey had.'

i just kinda sat there after reading that.

i have so come to believe in the connectedness of us
all and the support we can give even if we don't know
each other....i have tried to make it a part of what
i do....and to have her come when she's hurting so badly,
looking for help....

i find it incredibly moving, and incredibly powerful.

some things are just too much to hold. we need others to
put their arms around us, to put their hands out and help
hold it with us. it's the only way we can stay upright
sometimes....

and somewhere deep inside her, she knows that, and she's
looking for that help.

i'll be posting that in our newsletter when we send that
out to reach everyone we can....but right now, i wanted
to put it here. before i even processed the rest.

sometimes the words 'holy' and 'sacred' come to my mind
when certain things happen. her asking for this seemed
somehow holy or sacred....i don't even know how to explain
that....it's just a feeling i have.....

if anyone has anything they want to say to her, by all means,
write it to me and i'll pass it her way. verbal or silent,
let's all send her something from our hearts.

she needs it.
we need it.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

i am so sorry to hear of your best friends loss.. I could not imagine the pain. Let her know there are prayers coming from Illinois today.

Anonymous said...

Coming here via FB. Such deep words of both grief and hope. And it the connection was have as humanity that binds us together, that allows us to weep with one another...even those we do not know.

Anonymous said...

prayers are heading that way

Merry ME said...

I have searched my heart and books for just the right words to comfort all. At a time like this words have such little value. Still, they are all we have across the miles. Hopefully the energy of people far and wide will bring the warmth of a giant embrace. My prayer is that somehow, someday you will be know peace. Until then ...


"I have left a little light for you so you will know that someone cares …
Just where it becomes the most dark and difficult
to find your way, there is the light left for you.
And when your way becomes lighter,
please go back to that darkest place
where you have been,
and set the little light there
To give heart to the next trembling soul
That braces the path through the dark …"

Adaption poem by Mikki Brain McGrath family. (Ministry of the Arts, Congregation of St. Joseph. Fall-Winter 2007)

Anonymous said...

...may the words from my heart be an inspiration to your heart, a connection through sorrow and pain.
Though I do not know you - what matter, your pain ripples across the universe to sear me with its heat into awareness, into action.
To be, in Spirit with you, your loved ones, your extended family and friends.
To convey, in Spirit my love, caring, and strength to you all.
To stand, with Spirit, with you in your appreciation of the sacredness of all life.
To hold, in Spirit you and yours in the light - a soothing, refreshing, regenerative "Light of Love."
By Spirit, through Spirit we are joined in this pain, in a greater hope, in peace to rise again, in glory to provide honor, and faith to one another.
Trust that the Peace of GOD will be with you all through this time.